Time never speaks, but it says everything.
Memories#
I am a nostalgic person, just like some people say "nostalgic people always seem like scavengers". But it seems that everyone ignores the next sentence, "So I always look at you, who is bright and beautiful, in coarse clothes and burlap."
I am such a person, treating past events and past people as if they are still familiar.
Summer#
立夏 (the beginning of summer) has arrived, and the weather in Sichuan is still scorching.
Perhaps it is because I see my mediocrity, or perhaps it is because I see my various shortcomings, the weather seems especially hot, and there is also a sense of helplessness and frustration about what I should do now and what plans I should have for the future. It is difficult for me.
"There are 100 days left until the college entrance examination," a sudden voice broke the illusion. I looked at the countdown on the blackboard and looked around, looking at the classmates around me. Only a few of them were still looking up at the blackboard, and most of the classmates had their heads buried, either sleeping or playing with their phones. As for me, I usually hover between studying and not studying, and my scores have always been around 400 points. As for the college entrance examination, my idea is to just get into a university. My daily life is just a routine job. I won't study for a while when I return home at night. Like this, day after day passed. After the college entrance examination, I didn't have many thoughts. I just ignited the idea of retaking the exam. Maybe it was just a thought, but it seems that God gave me such an opportunity. The scores of my usual tests were around 400 points, which is not enough to get into a good vocational college. However, I entered a second-tier university with a score of 483. In my high school, it is already very good for a class to have a few undergraduate students, and it is precisely because of this opportunity.
Before I entered school, I bought a book on C programming by Tan Haoqiang (the father of C language 😂😂😂). This was also my first contact with programming. I still vaguely remember the first program I wrote, which was also the most impressive program. It was a program to solve quadratic equations. At that time, I showed off to my good friends everywhere. I learned through self-study every day, to be honest, I didn't learn too much during that time. I was always unable to focus on things, mainly because of my bad study habits. But I continued to study like this until the school started, 😍. I was a little excited when I first came to school, and I was full of enthusiasm for everything. I still vaguely remember being fooled by my senior brother to interview for a department during the promotion. When they promoted it, they said it was okay, just give it a try (yes, I went), I went there confidently, 😭😭😭, but it was different from what I imagined. I can't describe how awkward it was. At that time, I was emo. But fortunately, later, I learned that our school had a laboratory recruitment. To be honest, I was very excited (I have already left now). When I learned about the recruitment, I was particularly excited and prepared for the interview early. I still remember how passionate I was at that time. Until I successfully entered the laboratory, I also punched in on time every day and studied in the laboratory. I successfully passed several assessments and stayed in the laboratory, but later I found that the laboratory was not what I imagined. I had to explore everything on my own, and there were few opportunities to communicate with senior brothers. Most people just treat the laboratory as a self-study room.
......
Worship of Technology#
After a semester of study, my thoughts have changed, that is, the worship of technology. As for the final exams, I just wanted to pass. Of course, my grades were not good, but I still didn't care.
When it comes to worshiping technology, whenever I see the projects of the masters, I always think about when I can be so skilled. But looking back, was I really studying seriously during that time? It doesn't seem like it now. Instead, I wasted a lot of time, didn't plan my study schedule well, and didn't have good study habits. Looking back, I still regret it, I wasted a lot of time.
......
Morning#
As for tomorrow, my thoughts...
while live:
eat()
drink()
sleep()